The Worse of the Best ( storytelling)

You're cool but..... We're at different places right now. I ain't looking for love or nothing like that, or a relationship. Sometimes, the idea seems kind of cool, but really? I just ain't ready for it. I like my freedom, my space, the right to move as I please. You haven't done anything wrong, it's me. I don't think I am wrong, and you figure; what's new? But I really am not wrong, I just prefer not to be so close. I don't want to let you down. You wanna be #1, but.....You may be my #1 girl , but it doesn't mean much when you're not much of a priority. You provide a breath of fresh air sometimes, but.....I just think that's cool. You say u feel comfortable and in a safe place with me. That's good, but that kind of makes me feel funny. I can make room for you, but then I'll feel like I am making a mistake. I ain't scared of love, & I think you'll be fun to be in it with. But me? I might not be so fun. I am selfish right now, and you say you understand. Maybe you do, but there is also something called human nature. U ready for that? You deserve better, but who'll give it to you? You want it from me. While I am capable, I ain't ready. When you move on, I'll be jealous. Probably test you, but I got it coming. I got too much going on for us right now. Love is too much of a burden. If this were my perfect world; you'd understand me completely. You'd understand that I want you to trust every and anything I do when you are not around. You wouldn't let the distance bother us when I am away. You would not mind if I ignored a text cause I was busy. Your mind wouldn't wonder because I hang with a lot of females. You would embrace our time together, and love me more when we're apart. And the same goes for me. But it ain't in us. Love brings out the best & worse............I'ma sit love down and manipulate it one day. Bullshit huh?